Hey guys~

it has been a long (and I mean LONG) time since i updated or blogged...

i have a lot to say and a lot to share with you guys as well and i don't know where to start...

some of the things are....

anyways~ i have been thinking to blog for a while now....

but just never got it on!

now that i have finished high school, i have tons of time and there are a lot of things i wanna do and share with the people around me

but as my mom said to me,

"one step at a time. take it slow and do on your own pace"

so for today's post, i have picked a boring topic... 

*since its the only one that does not include any of my pictures to be upload*

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PUBLIC SPEAKING~! 

*or just generally standing and speaking in front of a crowd*

throughout my time in school all of us had have that time when we need to present something in front of the class... and its kinda scary to do so

and that's just in front of your FRIENDS!!!! 

in my school, during the morning assembly in school, 2 'lucky' students had to read a synopsis or do public speaking... talk about nerve wrecking!

*some people graduated without having to do so coz its something like a lucky draw... lucky bastards...*

i had a few friend that asked me how i manage to stand in front of a crowd and look at least not so nervous or not at all....

to tell the truth, i was freaking out in the inside!

i would just tell them that i just do it! 

even if you want to, there was no escaping public speaking... you just have to collect yourself, try to be as confident as possible and hope that you don't mess up!

oh, and think quick if something did go wrong!

*and you might wanna raise your voice so they can hear you*

others would say that its because i have been standing in front of a crowd allot of times, that's why i'm not nervous...

WRONG!!!!

as my coach used to say...

"no matter how many times you went into the ring and fight, you would still feel at least a bit scared."

and its true! no matter how many tournaments i went to, each one felt as if its my first time...

my parents said that it was because of when i went to training and meet new people i unconsciously learn how to present myself in front of people and not be nervous all the time...

its sort of true... 

i think that was where i build my confidence and believe i can do things right, even if its not the best, at the very least i tried and i can do it!

i'm still shy at times but i never run away from it. its like a new challenge that i need to face...

*something like that*

so, i think that is that!

i hope this help some of you guys out there~

see you on the next post! 

and i leave you with B.A.P's new MV

ONE SHOT!

*young jae WHY!!!! i feel bad for yong guk!!!*

Till next time,

this is YUUKI~
bye-bye!!!!